I'm going to be fat.

I'm going to be fat for a damn good reason. There's a life 
growing inside of me. We're having a baby. I mean, how 
surreal is that? There's a living person in my womb. Now 
that I'm thinking about it, it sounds a bit creepy. I mean,
 there's a living person inside of me. Then I'm going to 
eventually squeeze it out and say bye bye for the goodnight 
sleep and late mornings in bed.

I mean there's a living person inside of me. I'm so freaking happy
that it's even hard to put in words.
I made a positive pregnancy test on 20/6 and that's basically the
reason I quit smoking few months ago - I'm not going to destroy
this baby.
We've already named the baby, or not named - but instead of calling
it/he/she with a words "baby, bebe, beibs, vauva, vaavi, vauveli" we
nicknamed it as Dino - or Dinosaur as I like to call it. So whenever
I'm talking about Dino, it's the baby.

Right now I'm 12 weeks & 4 days pregnant, so it's safe to think about
having it in our family. I would've been already 13 weeks pregnant,
but in the ultrasound the baby was a bit smaller so they had to change
the due date haha.  I've been so superstitious that I haven't even told
anyone yet. J knows of course and by the time I've published this post
our families will know but I wanted to wait 12 weeks without telling
anyone just because I was afraid of miscarriage so much.
Now the risk of miscarriage is way lower and it's safe to say that I'm
pregnant. I can allow myself to look at baby clothes from stores we go
to. I can allow myself to include the fact that this one might not die
before 12 weeks of pregnancy or it might not die at all.
I can recognise the fact that I actually am pregnant. I can allow myself
to be happy because of it.

Now, I'm not saying I wasn't happy because of those two red lines in
the test - I was. I really truly was and I still am. I was just so afraid to be
happy, because miscarriage is kind of common thing (although nobody
ever talks about it) - I wanted to wait to be sure I can be truly happy
because of it.
And I am happy.

I'm so excited and I can't wait to find out is Dino a boy or girl so I can start
to decorate nursery. I've already bought a few unisex items for
Dino and they're so adorable I just want to look at them all the time.
I'm having a feeling that it's going to be a boy. I don't know why but I do.
I actually really don't care about anything else than it's healthy when it
comes out - but I'm getting strong "It's going to be a boy"-vibes.
I also had a dream about having twins, but that would be umm.. Yeah,
I'm just going to leave this rolling here. If we'd start with one first.
I wouldn't be thinking about having twins for reals, but I've had a few
dreams that've came true and my grandma had a dream a year ago that
I was having twins some day. So I have a right to be a bit creeped
because of it.
Well, if there's two dinosaurs there is.
At the moment we're looking for a new apartment so Dino would have
it's own room and we've found a couple. We're just waiting a response.
So exciting!



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  3. Congratulations!

  4. Congratulations. Sounds like you are about to embark on a exciting new stage of your life. That mickey mouse clothing is super cute too ;)

  5. Yeey, this is amazing post! Congratulations to you :) Things for Dino are cute


  6. Cute! Lovely post!

  7. Congratulations on the news, and yeah miscarriage is terrifying to think about I'm superstitious too and the clothes you showed are adorable :) all the best with the pregnancy and meeting little Dino :)

  8. Wowww....It´s sounds you´re a really happy woman.Congratulation to you dear.
    My best wishes that all running well until the baby come into this world.
    I follow your blog via subscribe email.Could please return back to follow my blog??Thank you and take care both of you.<3
    Lots of love,XOX Kintan


  9. We are both so happy. Good luck with Dino waiting!

  10. Congrats!! so happy for you :)

  11. Oh my gosh!!!!! Congratulations, girl!!! <3 <3 <3 This is such an exciting time in your life! Enjoy this milestone!

  12. Congrats! It's the most life changing, real magical journey you will take in your life. Enjoy every moment, or shall I say MOMent?! ;)
    And..you won't be fat, it's a real bundle of love growing..but you already know that! I feel your excitement, and am excited with you! <3

    1. Hahah I know I'm not going to be fat, just started off with a joke hahah :D thank you :-)

  13. Children are blessings from above congratulation...You excitement is an indication that you will see the child a priceless gift and take care of him or her with love and attention...


    1. I see them more as a miracle from idk, science but haha! I totally got your point! Thanks for the lovely comment :-)

  14. Omg, omg! Congratulations!! I have no idea why but this blog post make me super excited for you! I wish you best luck with Dino and everything else XD

    1. Hahah yay I'm glad to hear that you're excited too! Thank you so much Annie :-) xx

  15. Congratulations!! And omg that Mickey Mouse socks <3 so cute!!

    xo http://sarandaadriana.com

  16. Oooo so excited for you! When i read the header i was totally :oooo
    I like to read your day by day and its so fantastic! I always wanted to be a mummy, but someday... :3
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    1. Thank you so much! I have no idea how I missed this comment when I got it and forgot to answer to it :D

  17. Aw, amazing news!! Congratulations! You must be so excited :)

    And I love those Mickey clothes!! Too cute! <3

    Best regards,
    xo E


  18. Congratulations Jasmin 💕 exciting times :)


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