2017/03/13

THE BIRTH STORY

It's time. 
It's time to look back to that faithful weekend when our little baby decided he was ready to come out and quickly dive into this world. 


I believe it all started on 25th of February. At the morning, I woke up at 4 and I felt a pain I've never felt before. I was having regular and YES, painful contractions. Finally, this was it. Or that's what I thought. The morning went by counting contractions and packing the hospital bag. Just a typical Saturday morning right? Yeah, I might've left that packing operation to a bit last minute project. Whoops.

The pain I had wasn't that painful. I went to a hot shower and took a couple of painkillers to make me feel better. Well, neither of those worked so very quickly I realised that this really was it. I was excited and I called to the hospital for further instructions. They asked if I was able to stay at home where I answered that I wasn't. I needed something for the pain, at that very second and they asked us to head to the hospital to get checked. I was pretty pissed about the way the nurse spoke to me over the phone. You know when people try to sound calm but they end up speaking to you like you are the baby? With that kind of a tone. It's freaking annoying.

When we arrived at the hospital at the morning, the midwife took us in and we listened to Dino's heartbeat. After listening for a while, the midwife did an internal examination for me and told us that we're not in labour. There was still 2cm cervix left and it was closed. She sent us home with some painkillers and told me to watch TV, eat plenty of food and just relax for the evening.
"We'll see you on Monday or next week or so", she said and we headed home.

That Saturday was pure torture for me. I was feeling awful throughout the whole day and everything I did felt like a huge exercise but only ten times worse. I tried to do everything to keep myself from thinking the pain I had. Although, the pain wasn't that hard but in my mind, I was thinking that if this is not it, how painful will the real thing be. I mean, thanks Dino for letting us watch Who Wants To Be a Millionaire? on that Saturday evening but holy crap it was hard to focus on it.

By 11 on that evening, I was rolling from side to side on our bed thinking that I might die. I didn't sleep at all. I remember thinking that if this isn't the labour what the hell is then? I thought that I had to survive with the pain for a couple of more days and honestly, I didn't love the idea.


Sunday, 26th of February

01:00 - I went to shower. I was sitting on the floor, crying my eyes out and I was ready to die. Or well, not die. I cried because I was in pain and I thought that the labour hadn't started yet because the midwife said so earlier. I didn't believe that it was the real pain. You know, they say "you know when it happens and you need to go to the hospital" - well, I had no clue, oh boy I didn't have a clue.

01:30 - I got out from the shower. I was absolutely exhausted because I had slept only four hours the night before and that night, I didn't sleep at all. I dressed up and tried to get some sleep. I wasn't able to lay down on the bed, so I pushed a couple pillows against the wall and placed myself there.

02:00 - I wasn't able to sleep while I sat there, so I started walking around the apartment. I ended up to our bathroom hugging the washing machine. It was insane. I woke J up and told him that this is happening. It's happening now and we need to go to the hospital, right now. I called the hospital to let them know I was coming down there, no matter what they say because I've tried everything I thought might help at home to ease the pain and none of the methods was working.

03:00 - We checked into the hospital at 3 in the morning and I was placed on bed and we listened to Dino's heartbeat & apparently those plugs had something to do with counting contractions as well.  When the midwife got in at the second time while we measured these rates, she brought me hospital clothes saying "yeah, this baby is coming out today" I started to panic. I know, I said I wasn't stressing about the whole labour thing and I still wasn't at that point but hearing those words got me so overwhelmed all I could think about was that we didn't shut down the lights from the kitchen when we left home.

03:15 - I was introduced to gas and air and oh boy I was in heaven. There were a couple of times when I forgot to breathe it in at the right moment so there were a couple of contractions I felt like I was going to die.  The gas and air helped me most of the way but I told the midwife that I wanted an epidural at some point if I can't handle the pain.

07:00 - I was 4cm open.

08:28 - I was 6cm open and the midwife called to anaesthesia doctor to get there and place the epidural catheter. That anaesthesia doctor was such a funny guy, though, I mean he needed to place the catheter twice because it went somewhere else on the first try. I thought that would be painful but I was so high from all the meds that I didn't feel a thing.
Also, thanks to my black humour in weird places I remember joking about how dangerous placing that catheter is because it's placed somewhere in the spine or close to it. I mean, who jokes about those things. Well, I do. And apparently, he does too.

09:15 - I was 6cm open and got my epidural.

11:00 - I was 8cm open and I felt a massive pressure between my legs. It was like taking a huge dump but it felt 10 times worse. Especially when the epidural didn't affect at all for me. The baby was coming out and he was coming out quickly.

11:50 - The midwife asked me to go to the bathroom, to pee and I went.
Fun fact: peeing is not something you really want or are able to do at that point of labour and I was not able to do so. I got to the toilet and as soon as I sat there, I wanted to die.

12:00 - I was told I was 10cm open and whenever I felt the pressure I was allowed to push the baby out. The pushing part was the worst and for a couple of good minutes we practised the right method and tried different positions. I started off laying on my left side while the midwife helped me to keep my right leg up. She also asked me not to push her with my leg, because she needed to catch the baby when he comes out. Well, at one point she told me I was pushing her with my leg and I apologised for that. I mean, how many people apologise in that situation? Before all this birthing thing was even accurate, I was sure I would be one of those people who yell like crazy and calls everyone with rude names but no, I'm apologising for pushing the midwife with my leg.

12:37 - The baby was out. It took five contractions and 15 pushes. And that's the part I don't want to ever feel again and where I apparently had two panic attacks.
Or well, I really don't know. J told me that I looked like it and the midwife asked me to calm down. All I can remember is that I thought how dumb that midwife was because she thought I was having a panic attack when I really wasn't. Who knows, it all happened so fast and everything was super hectic.


Thanks to all the medication the midwife was giving to me I didn't feel pain almost at all. Taking them all was the best decision I've ever made, I bet I'd be dead by now if I didn't haha.

When I saw Dino for the very first time my thoughts were "holy crap did that just come out of me?" and "oh my god, that's disgusting." Anyways, that was love at the first sight and I managed to cry a little when he was placed in my arms. Gosh, I created that. We created that. And he was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen, or well - a little gross, but still the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.

Everything went well, although I needed a couple of stitches because the opening process and everything went by so fast. They took me away from my baby for almost four hours and those four hours were the worst hours of my life so far. I was desperate to meet my baby and by 5 pm I reunited with him.

It's so amazing what a body can do.
Holy shit.

After all, I want to thank all the lovely midwives over at Kätilöopisto.
You did such an amazing job.


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50 comments:

  1. Loved this! Labour is such a beautiful thing!! You did really well :)

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    1. Haha, thanks :D the idea of it sounds beautiful but in my opinion it was kind of gross in some way :D

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  2. Wow lovely! Huge congratualtions. He is beautiful. Welcome to the the best roller coaster ride of your life x

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  3. Congratulations and lots of love to the baby. Labour definitely is scary but look how brave you are and what you've made. :)

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    1. Haha thanks! It's amazing what our bodies are able to do :)

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  4. Hi Jasmin! Well done lady, you rock! I loved reading your story, I think every birth is different and its so interesting to read / hear about people's experiences. xx K

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    1. Oh definitely! I love reading these too - actually, I got a bit obsessed during the last weeks of my pregnancy haha :D and I still am... :D

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  5. Congratulations! I always find birth stories so interesting. I had twins in the US and a singleton in Germany, completely different experiences.

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    1. Oh it's so different in different countries! I've been reading a loads of these posts & as being used to Finnish ways some things that are happening abroad sound so weird & a bit scary haha :D

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  6. Owh that's a gorgeous story... I've never been pregnant but I hope I'll be someday, and finally have a little one to care about xx

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  7. Loved reading this! Your story sounds so crazy, but the end result is always the best. All the best for you & your little bundle of joy <3

    Nicole | The Glam Surge

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    1. I think all birth stories sound a bit crazy haha :D thank you so much Nicole :-) <3

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  8. Aww what a lovely story! I enjoyed reading that! It's amazing what a female body goes through.
    Well done, sounds like you done a great job at the hospital. I love your baby's name, Dino 💙

    Thank you for sharing your story!

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    1. Haha, thank goodness Dino is only a nickname ;) it's so weird how much a female body can do - I still can't wrap my head around it :D

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  9. This is a true love story! Some day my turn will arrive :) Happy for your mini <3

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    1. Some day, some day :-) He's freaking hilarious <3

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  10. I loved reading this!... well done you! :)

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    1. Haha, happy to hear! Thanks :)

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  11. Well done chick!! I know what you mean about the whole "I'm ready to die" thing haha the pain is just soooooo intense!! You really have created such a gorgeous little human <3
    You managed so well staying at home for so long though!! I was induced so I was in hospital already but the time waiting for pain relief is the worst and the longest!! xx

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    1. The pain was so weird. I mean, it hurts like hell but then again I could've live with that. Maybe my pain tolerance is a bit higher or it was the adrenaline or so, but yeah, the pain I had at home - I could've live with that.
      I just had the feeling that we need to go now or it'll be too late to get all the medication haha :D Honestly, I thought it would've been more painful than it actually was.
      Also, they suggest here in Finland that we need to wait at home until contractions are 5min apart and they're regular. It's kind of funny though, knowing it might be too late at that point for some people. :D

      I read your birth story and holy crap woman you're absolutely amazing! <3

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  12. It is amazing. Well done, you can look back and think 'yeah I did that!' the pain is shocking, and having had two completely different labours, out right bizarre. I thought i was gonna die with my second and was all earth mother warrior with the first. Haha- Congratulations Yvadney @ Mums That Slay xx

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    1. Yaiks, well done you! Thank you so much :-)

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  13. Such a great story, i am so glad everything went well, enjoy with your little one xoxo

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  14. Congratulations. Labour is a funny old thing xx

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  15. Congratulations, such an honest story - I can't believe you can remember that it was 15 pushes at the end, after 34 hours and no pain relief I have no clue! Glad you and baby are both safe, enjoy motherhood!

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    1. The way my mind works is so weird, I focus on so many weird things in weird situations :D thank you!

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  16. Aww, congratulations!! Enjoy your little one as they grow up sooo fast! I actually loved my labours and felt very empowered by them - just a bit of gas and air with my second one so it can be done :) all the best xx

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    1. Gas and air is absolutely wonderful haha! :D
      Thank you so much :-) he's already growing up so fast.

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  17. Beautiful story. And beautiful baby
    Hard to believe now but you will forget the pain ������

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    1. Thank you! :-) Haha, how long does it take? :D

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  18. Congratulations. While reading, I actually had goosebumps thinking about all the pregnancy stuff. Hats off to you!

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    1. Haha, all the pregnancy stuff is a bit crazy sometimes :D

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  19. I know I never had to experience this but I know what my ex said about the epideral and how amazing she felt afterwards. If you didn't feel it at all that would be rough. Glad everything went ok in the end.

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    1. Yeah, that didn't have enough time to affect for me - although, the pain wasn't as bad as I imagined it to be :D

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  20. So interesting to hear more about the birth Jasmin, your baby is so gorgeous

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    1. Haha, thank you Marleen - he's absolutely amazing :-)

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  21. Oh I am so melting here!!! Congratulations. I am so excited to have my own baby boy in 3 months!

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    1. Thank you! I'm so excited for you! <3

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  22. Ah I love reading a birth story it takes me straight back to my own experiences and makes me well up a little! x

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    1. Haha, happy to hear that you enjoyed reading this :-)

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  23. It reminds me of my niece. Its like deja vu. :D

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  24. He is so beautiful! Congratulations!

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  25. Love a good birth story, always gives me flashbacks when I hear the word contraction. You did so well!!

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